I need to chill out

I am beginning to think I have a  serious problem with my rages; they are worse than ever. These days, even the simplest thing can make me go ballistic. I have known that my CP effects my emotional control for a while now, but it is really getting stupid. I get wound up over the simplest things: it’s what brought on that rather juvenile blog entry about Lee Ridley a couple of days ago; and whenever I see anything pro-brexit online, I go baserk. It’s reached a point where I’ve been waking up at night and winding myself up so much that I end up banging my mattress with rage. I have quite a bit on my mind at the  moment in my personal life, and I’m worried about my future, but even if they last only a few seconds, these rages cannot be healthy. For a few moments I think the whole world is out to get me, or  that I have enemies  who have screwed me over and whom I must find and kill. It really is getting ridiculous. I really need to chill out.

2 thoughts on “I need to chill out”

  1. Hey bro, sorry to hear this is becoming harmful for you, but I’m proud of you for recognising it as an issue – that’s a lot harder than many people think.

    The next step is to work out who or what might be able to help you to control it. Mindfulness practice (such as by using the Headspace app) can by great for making sure one’s actions are more considered and rational. For a more abstract discussion of the topic, I’d also recommend Danny Kahneman’s book Thinking, Fast and Slow for understanding how one’s immediate response to a situation might be incorrect and counterproductive, and how to engage the slower, rational thinking that can result in better outcomes.

    I’d also encourage you to find services that might be able to help you. The NHS has a page dedicated to controlling anger here: https://www.nhs.uk/conditions/stress-anxiety-depression/controlling-anger/

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