I do not recall ever feeling this upsets. I can not access the email from my website at home, only hotmail; when I checked outlook, at about 5 this evening, I found an email from my friend Jodie: party at charlotte’s, see me soon for a lift. It was sent Friday, so I rushed but to find my friends. I was too late.. the space they had in the car filled. I rushed about frantically trying to get to Chester, but to no avail. While I know I’ll see her soon enough, I’d have given anything to get to that party – tot be with my friends, surprising Charlie. She’s the type of person I’d walk to the ends of the earth for, as I’d suspect she’d do no less for me. Not being able to get there, to be in her company, feels like I’ve betrayed her almost. If course, we’ll see each other at graduation, and I suspect we’ll be seeing a lot of each other in the future, but my inability to get to this party – the farewell do of my best friend – saddens me very deeply indeed.