Michelle f added me as a friend on facebook last night. It was, of course, great to see her – I have barely seen her since school. I went to visit them, once, with bill, when rich was still about.

It has brought back a lot of emotion. Her profile pic is one of her and rich together, a fact which I find…well, I don’t know how I find it. I just find myself wanting to hug Michelle, to tell her how sorry I feel,, to tell her how I feel about Richard’s death – how fucked up it is. But I don’t know how.

I need my friends right now. All of them.