proper use of the phrase ”fuck off”

Something happened earlier and I’m feeling rather guilty about it. Around two this afternoon, I was sat at the bus stop outside Crewe campus. I was quite deep in thought – about Lyn, my thesis, 1voice, lunch – and generally minding my own business. Suddenly, this old woman comes up to me. She took me by surprise enough to make me jump. She had this dog in her arms which she wanted me to pat. It was a small thing; the type which most call cute and dad calls rat-dogs. Now, I have no interest in dogs, and so the way in which this woman had assumed I wanted to pat the damn thing just because I was sitting in a wheelchair struck me as highly patronising, this, together with the shock, elicited a string of ”fuck offs” from me.

”I just thought you might like to pat the doggy.” She said.

The use of the word ”doggy” rather than ”dog” pissed me off even more: ”Fuck off fuck off fuck off” I said. She did. I instantly felt guilty. She was just an old woman with a dog. I suppose I should have patted it like a good little cripple. On the other hand, would she have asked any other guy at a bus stop to pat her mut? Why do people just assume I like to stroke little animals? If you ask me, if we are going to show people that we are individuals rather than things to be pitied, such language is sometimes necessary.

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