A year or so ago, Lyn was asked to compose the soundtrack for a spanish documentary about Paralympic cyclists called unsoppables. It is now fished, and L got an email yesterday saying the producers now intended to tour the film festivals with it. That alone is great news, but they also made a short film about Lyn herself to go on the DVD extras. It too is finished and can now be seen here. I love it, and once again I’m extremely proud of my fiancee.

Believe it or not I still look back with glee to London 2012. If you think about it, what happened to me that summer was awesome: somehow I found myself living in city hosting the olympics, at the beginning of which we saw the queen parachute from a helicopter with james bond*, and at the end of which my future wife played before the world. For the rest of my life I will be able to say I was there in London, in 2012, and point to the pictures and the videos; that to me seems very special.

Now, though, something more intriguing is about to take place. London 2012 may still fill me with glee, but Sochi 2014 interests me on a completely different level. We are about to see Russia’s olympics, Putin’s olympics, an event wrapped in controversy and politics. Many people see to predict that Vladimir Putin is going to try to make the forthcoming games his own, using them to showcase russia to the world. How will he do this, exactly? No doubt he will make the most of the opening and closing ceremonies, but I can’t wait to see precisely how. Inasmuch as you can read such ceremonies as you would any other artistic text, I can’t wait to see how this tsar in all but name does, how he will try to present his country to the world, and what he will try to play down. Indeed, given the revulsion in the west over Putin’s homophobic laws, I also can’t wait to see the reaction here too, both from the mainstream media and social networks; it too will probably be very telling.

Interesting days ahead, then, for a media junkie like myself. I mused once over the possibility of the Brazilians making their own version of ‘Happy and Glorious’, but possibly even more interesting is the thought that Putin could take up the meme and use it to somehow show off his macho-man image. The thought that russia could have created their own version of the Paraorchestra interests me too: what will it look like, and how will disability in general be presented given the frankly hellish history of people with disabilities in Russia. Such questions will have to wait a week or so, but I’m afraid to say that my interest in Olympic affairs has been reborn. Plus, now that we Londoners don’t have to worry about pissing off the IOC vis-a-vis a forthcoming bid, we can be a bitchy as we like. Chance, then, to let loose on their corruption, corruption in russia, and the whole sordid affair in general.

This should be fun.

*I still think that is the coolest thing ever, at least of it’s type. I mean, space travel is probably just as cool if not cooler, but you know what I mean. It’s the queen with bond, for smeg’s sake.

I had quite a heavy night on the ale last Monday so last Tuesday morning I decided a couple of weeks abstinence was in order. It was all going well, and I had even discovered the wonders of alcahol-free beer, until I took my usual walk yesterday afternoon. I was down the hill when I got a message on my iPad: it was my friend Luke, writing from a Pub not too far away, asking whether I wanted to join them. What could I do? It would be rude not to go.

Five minutes later, I was opening the door to the Albion; and there was my friend, whetting the head of his cute new niece. Almost immediately, I was offered a bitter, and suddenly the words ‘no thanks’ seemed absent from my vocabulary. It was, however, great to see Luke, Sally and family, and it turned out to be a very fortunate meeting as we got on to discussing the films we intend to make. I had almost forgotten about it, but Luke and Sally still seemed enthusiastic despite the pause. My own enthusiasm for the project was reinvigorated, and I rode home about an hour later very happy indeed. Okay, I had let myself down slightly by giving in to my thirst, but the prospects were looking up: we now intend to meet again soon to get on with shot lists, casting and so on – the nitty gritty of filming. How very exciting indeed: the future looks bright, and if I have drink a beer or two along the way, it’s a sacrifice I have to make.

I think I better flag up this story, having just stumbled over it. A video of Ukip’s Godfrey Bloom asking a Disabled Student ‘Are You Richard III?’ has come to light.

At an oxford union debate on immigration, Bloom actually interrupts the guy, who obviously has cp, mid flow to ask if he is the disabled fifteenth-century monarch. Can you believe that? I find it utterly disrespectful. Bloom probably thought he was being witty, but I just think it’s just another reason to ignore the group of idiots known as ukip.

Today I would just like to add a bit of a note to something I began to think about here a couple of days ago. Another folly of the conservative mindset, as far as I see it, is its opposition to tax. Tories argue that if taxes are high – and I note today that Mr. Balls now wants a return to the 50p rate of tax – it drives away investment, and people take business elsewhere causing overall government income to drop. Yet this both assumes and legitimises a mindset which prioritises the self over the community. If everyone cared about those around them, they would invest no matter what, happy to contribute to society. Again, then, the problem is the conservative indevidualistic mentality; it is this mentality which prevents human cooperation and progress.The Tory Notion that they can somehow do more for less, and those who need help from the state will no suffer if taxes are cut, is flatly and absolutely shown false by the reports of suffering I see week in, week out, about disabled people whose care packages have been cut. Their suffering is therefor essentially caused by the low-tax tory mentality. If only we could abandon this money-oriented society, distribute resources according to need, and work together for the common good rather than personal gain.

Oh well, we can all dream.

iPads are forever They are all I need to please me

Their apps scintillate and tease me

They don’t crash in the night,

I’ve no fear that they might

Fail me!

***

This ain’t Nokia

What good would Android do me?

Apple never lies to me

They are cheap replicas who

It’s not worth going to

The shops for!

***

iPads are forever, forever iPads are so clever, so clever

So clever! Apple forever?

It is often said that when he was outlining socialism Marx forgot to factor in human instinct, and that we are too naturally greedy for his theories ever to work. It occurred to me today, on the way to Asda, that he was right that the best, fairest and equitable state for mankind to live in is indeed socialism, and that what Marx was suggesting is a complete paradigm shift in our mentality. For nirvana to be achieved, we must all adopt a completely new mindset: we must stop measuring ourselves by how much we earn; we must do away with arbitrary barriers between social groups; we must outgrow competition and work together. We must see eachother as of equal worth, irrespective ability, gender or whatever. As Marx himself famously wrote, ‘from each according to ability, to each according to need’; things would no longer be ‘me me me’. We need to move away from the idea that competition is the best way to solve problems and ensure things improve: competition demands short cuts and quick fixes, whereas if people work together toward some overarching goal, with some sort of director making sure the available resources get used most efficiently, that goal is achieved in the best possible way. Also, that director can also ensure that those people with less obvious skills, like myself, can contribute, whereas employers focussed solely on profit see only the need for efficiency and speed. People with disabilities are left by the wayside by capitalism, their potential wasted.

The prime obstacle to this goal is capitalism itself – the greedy, selfish right-wing mentality that prises inequality. It is capitalism which traps us, not the welfare state, for it forces people to think in limited, narrow, antagonistic terms. Thus to flourish we must do away with this simplistic discourse, and grow beyond it. For that to occur, though, a fundamental change in our mindset must happen.

Dear Mr. Duncan-smith

Fuck, do you have some cheek. In a Speech I saw today you told the country that you are cutting welfare out of compassion, that too many people had become dependant on the welfare state an you were liberating them from a dependant life. To hear you speak you were sounding like some great hero setting people free, acting entirely altruistically. How fucking stupid do you think we are?! Only a complete moron would believe there is a shred of altruism in your actions; you are motivated entirely by the desire to lower taxes for rich bastards like yourself. The consequences of shrinking the welfare state is not a reduction in welfare dependency, but starvation. Ar we supposed to believe that everyone currently on welfare will magically be able to get a job, and the only thing stopping them from doing so now is laziness? No, p’tahk, it isn’t. That is a lie you Tory bastards pedal to justify your greed-motivated views. People need the welfare state for many reasons; I have many friends who use it, and not one of them does so by choice.

Moreover, if you suddenly block the only incomes of so many, the result will not be a sudden upsurge in employment but mass starvation and suffering. But you don’t give a fuck about that, do you, IDS? All you care about is people like yourself: rich people with good educations, from what you see as good families. To you, only your own values matter, and all others are lesser people. So cut the crap, you fucker, and stop patronising us. It’s blatantly obvious why you are doing what you are doing, and don’t insult are intelligence by claiming to set us free – you’re leaving people to starve, and, because they are not like you, you relish it. Yours

Thinking Britain

I am currently watching prime ministers questions as usual, and much is being made of the so called economic recovery. Too see the Tories boasting so merrily, acting so pleased with themselves, is utterly galling. Yes, the figures might be slightly better than expected, but this is despite, not because of, what the government is doing. The economy was always going to improve; luckily it happened before many economists forecast, yet people are still dying and suffering due to the cuts. People’s care packages are being cut, more and more people are taking their lives; yet CaMoron stands up in parliament patting himself on the back for a recovery he did not cause.

It is almost too much for me to tolerate. How dare these unelected pieces of shit be so arrogant?how can anyone causing so much suffering be so cocky? And it is the Tories who are to blame for our suffering, not Labour. Their attempts to shift the blame, to rewrite history, fills me with rage even further. As I wrote a couple of days ago, it is the conservative ideology itself which is the problem as it encourages selfishness and greed. To the Tories, if they and their rich friends are doing well, we have recovered – the rest of us do not matter. They pretend they care, but they don’t.

Enough is enough. If they had any honour, CaMoron and co would be apologising and resigning, but instead they demand our gratitude and respect. After all, to them they were born to rule. Thus they come on shows like Daily Politics and tell us all how everything is getting better and fairer. Better to them means lower taxes, and their idea of fairness is ensuring the rich are still able to oppress the poor, and those who can dominate those who cannot. They seem to have no compassion, no humanity, as long as people as rich as them are doing well; if others are suffering, it is their own fault and of no concern to the ruling class. This attitude means that my blood boils whenever I see a Tory speak, pedalling their lies, insulting the very country they presume so arrogantly to rule. They must go: people are suffering due to their arrogant, selfish ideology. They belong in jail, not Westminster, and any moronic bastard who denies that and defends them is as guilty as they are. The line on the graphs may be pointing upward, for now at least, but people are still suffering; they take credit for the former, but the latter is their true legacy.

Accessing the Ipad with her nose

Her head jerks, yet with the surety of an expert,

She selects precisely her intended target

Flitting and darting between apps.

So quickly you can barely keep up.

***

Then, her nose, nostrils a-flair in concentration, Having tapped ‘record’, she makes sounds, odd, babylike, yet obviously what she wants

To use later in her latest song

Those works of melodic genius which emanate from her small studio

***

I watch her, and we both laugh at the funny little noises.

I wonder what they will become,

How she’ll use them, transform them,

Slowly, precisely

Into something great

Facebook reminded me this morning that today would have been Lee Mayer’s 30th birthday. It has been almost a year since his death, but his family have kept his facebook page open. I still miss him, as I do all my school friends no longer here. Yet I suppose I have other things to concentrate on: there are a couple of big protests coming up, Lyn and I are going to a forthcoming radio caroline event, and there is also the matter of my birthday in march. In all, the future’s bright, and I should have lots to write about on here. I’m aware that most of my blog entries have been rather short recently, and need to get back to writing more substantial articles. Thus, while today I will remember lee, I’ll continue to look forward to a fun-filled future; old Mayer would not have had it any other way.

I was thinking this morning, and it occurred to me that the biggest threat humanity faces, as a species, is not climate change or dwindling resources, but conservatism. The mentality which has people place themselves before the community; which says money is life’s ultimate goal; which allows those who can to lord it over those who cannot, and says haves are somehow better than have nots. The ideology which demands mining more fossil fuels and objects to wind turbines because they blot the landscape; which objects to gay marriage because, despite giving all sorts of legal, moral or religious reasons, deep down they just hates gay people; which demands tax should be kept low for rich people even when the poorest in society are starving because their benefits have been cut. It is that ideology, that set of childish selfish impulses mistaken by idiots for politics, which blights humanity. Neoliberal conservatism itself is a problem, and the sooner we realise that, outgrow greed selfishness and the pursuit of money and start working together for the good of all, irrespective of ability gender or skin tone, the better.

My friend steve posted the following on facebook about five minutes ago

[quote=”Steve M”]

Jenny Chalmers and myself would like to announce the birth of our daughter, Molly Jane Metcalfe. Born on the 15th January at 20:09. Mum and baby are both doing well.[/quote]

I’m over the moon for them both. A great day (very positive feedback from dave, and the possibility of a new voluntary position) just got even better.

I was out and about yesterday afternoon, and thought I would pop in to the white swan. Believe it or not I don’t go into pubs as often as I used to, but I had heard the swan now looks great, and I felt like a pint. They weren’t exaggerating: the swan used to be a dump, and three or four years ago lyn and I were barred by the then landlord for dribbling; now, however. it is a totally different place. It is clean, elegant, with a good range of beers. Being just around the corner, I daresay it might well become my new bolt-hole, although it was a tad dear. Either way, it is nice to report a resolution to a drama which, although it happened three years ago, really got my goat. The new landlord seems like a nice chap who perhaps Lyn will meet soon too.

I just stumbled onto this, it’s pessimistic medical-model undertones aside probably the best cerebral palsy-based rap song ever, if just for it’s tenuous lines. Seriously,I take my hat of to anyone who can rhyme words like athetoid. Mind you, if this gets stuck in your head, don’t blame me.

I just want to draw your attention to something I noticed on Sherlock last night. It’s only small, and barely worth a blog entry really, but I’ll probably be smiling about it for weeks. In all I found the episode supremely well-written and a joy to watch, but towards the end, when everything is over and they are talking in the security services, Mycroft Holmes says something about Needing sherlock to be a sharp instrument, whereas ‘one of his colleagues’ speaks ‘fondly’ about needing ‘blunt instruments’. I squealled with glee when I heard that line! Who could he be talking about? Who is referred to as ‘a blunt instrument’? Why, 007 himself! That makes Mycroft’s colleague M. It’s only a slight, inconsequential allusion, but I found it glorious. It is so simple, yet so witty. Sherlock and Bond exist in the same universe there could even be a crossover, but I doubt it, although stranger things have happened. Either way, this simple, subtle allusion pleases me enough. I don’t know why I like such things – perhaps it is the simple satisfaction of ‘getting it’ – but it’ll probably have me smiling for days.

I am having a largely sofa-oriented day today. Yesterday was a long one, although it turned out okay in the end. On Thursday, having met them for dinner, I arranged to meet my cousin Christina and Tom and a couple of their friends in Greenwich. It was a straightforward enough plan: we were going to meet at Greenwich station at quarter to three. I got there with time to spare. Then I waited. And waited.

And waited. I must have been there two hours, all the while trying to get a message to chris or Tom to establish where they were; I even emailed mum asking her to phone chris. She did not have her number. About an hour later, on the verge of giving up and heading home, I finally realised I had the number all along – thank smeg for iPads and their access to emails. Kicking myself, I headed back to the station and asked one of the members of staff there to phone chris. Ten minutes later, Tom appeared, apologising profusely in that Michael palin-esque way he has.

I was feeling slightly grouchy by then, but a couple of beers and a bite to eat sorted that. Now I know what you are going to say: I should have had a PA with me who could have phoned them. However, had I had someone in tow, I would have felt obliged to give up and head home long before I saw Tom enter the station. I find being alone sometimes gives me a certain flexibility. On the other hand, yesterday afternoon perhaps I should have taken John or mitch, given we went to a restaurant after we met.

My errors aside, it turned out to be a great evening. I chatted to Tom about work, and we generally enjoyed each others company. In the end we walked back to charlton and had a beer in the Antigalligan pub. There we said goodbye, and I got home at about nine, knackered but pleased everything turned out right in the end.

As I tucked into a cornish pasty, I quietly congratulated myself for not giving up and for handling the situation – such events make me feel more independent.

That aside, time to put my feet up and chill out: independence can be stressful.

Sorry, I just have to put this here for it’s sheer incredible-ness

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Sometimes, coming home after a busy day, one which had seen you travel all over south London, and during your travels you have realised what a lucky guy you are to lead such a great life; a day upon which you have been out volunteering, helping make a difference; sometimes, coming in from the cold to the woman who adores you and whom you adore; all you can do on such days is, with an inward smile, ask the simple rhetorical question: ‘what a day?’

At school, volunteering as usual

A class about discrimination. Basic. ‘Spot the difference’

Teaching kids about something they’ll face all their life;

Yet won’t realise, don’t realise.

An irony, upsetting when pondered But they are ignorant of it, and their ignorance somehow brings me comfort.

It is wednesday again, and I have again been driven to despair watching the tv, watching an unelected elite lording it up in westminster while others starve, blaming their crimes on others. Each time I watch camoron and his sycophantic tory scumbags at PMQs,my heart fills with a type of palpable, pure rage. Somehow I can’t quite put it i words, but I know what they are doing is wrong. It’s similar to the anger expressed here – a kind of forlorn dispair at their inhumanity, their greed and their arrogance. I want to rant as the artist taxi driver does in the video, but I can’t; I just end up coming in here and writing another blog entry.

Anger has become a familiar feeling to me of late: yesterday, of course, it was anger at my own ineptitude at not realising that the reason that my chair wasn’t charging was that I hadn’t plugged it in properly, and having to pay forty quid for a guy to come to point that out. More often, though, it is anger at things I cannot control: anger at people calling men who dress as living dolls, as shown on this program, ‘wrong on every level’, then arrogantly refusing to justify their statement. Sorry, but I can’t let such intolerance slide, for where will it lead? I feel anger at the cricket: although england played poorly, australia’s behaviour was disgraceful, and I still say they do not deserve the ashes for that reason. Anger at Simon stevens, who writes all sorts of accusatory bullshit in the huffington post, as well as I’m told making threats to various people, then has the sheer cheek to portray himself as some kind of victim when people question what he writes. I suppose I should just let such things slide. Life is, after all, too short. Yet all these cases have at their core a kind of arrogance, an hypocrisy I cannot stand. Such people defend their intolerance by accusing others of not tolerating them; they confuse reasoned argument for insult, so such people are beyond reason and argument. The fact I cannot get through to them angers me. At the end of the day, the reason I get angry is that I can’t do anything about these things.

A long, stressful day

But I have little to say

My chair is now going

But stress-marks are showing

So to bed, if I may.

This cannot continue. I may feign anger at australia and her cricket team, but at the end of the day, cricket is a game played between friends. Politics is different, and my anger at the tories and the pain they have CHOSEN to inflict today fills me with a rage beyond words. Do they not give a damn how many will die due to their cuts, due to their refusal to raise taxes for those who can afford it? Day after day I read reports of starving and suffering, and I hold camoron, osbourne and all tory p’tahk directly guilty. This cannot continue; surely this unelected scum must be removed from power. For humanity’s sake people are dying because of them, and, as extreme though it sounds, I think direct action is now vital.

Just as I refuse to accept CaMoron as the legitimate Prime Minister of this country given the tories did not win the last election, as far as I am concerned England have retained the ashes. By no means did they deserve the loss Australia seems to have inflicted upon them; given the nature and severity of the defeat, in fact I suspect something not quite right. If we look at the statistics, something is clearly amiss – all the matches follow the same pattern: England start off well, then collapse. In normal circumstances, there is no way that should happen, leading me to suspect these were not normal circumstances. They probably hid it well, but I suspect foul play on the part of australia – I’d like to see Mitchel Johnson’s bowling action investigated for starters, and as I wrote here, Australia’s conduct both on and off the pitch was an insult to the game. In no way did they deserve tis ‘victory’ Thus, as far as I am concerned, this series is void and the ashes retained by England.

I’m not sure what I would do with it, nor in fact how much it costs, where to get it or whether any are still available, but I would love to have the bond prop mentioned in this review. Setting aside the fact that other pieces of Bond memorabilia – an aston martin car, for instance – might be more practical, this replica of the famous ‘golden gun’ appears so well made and so authentic that I simply and absolutely desire it. It would look so good on my book shelf.

I suppose the line between a good idea and a total waste of time can sometimes be quite fine. My grandmother lives in north London and, knowing that my uncle and aunt are currently staying with her, and seeing that it was quite a bright day, this morning I decided to pay them a surprise visit. They are planning to visit us at the weekend, so I thought it would be a good opportunity to make sure all the arrangements are in place.

Perhaps it is testimony to London’s sheer vastness that I rarely go up there. Despite a near enough direct tube line there, it takes over an hour to get to my grandmother’s. But it is christmas, and she keeps asking ŵhen I will visit her. Looking back I should have emailed my uncle first to make sure they were in, but I am me, and I like being spontaneous and quirky.

Of course, the predictable thing happened: they weren’t in. I got to that old front door I know so well, rang the bell, and waited, and waited, but nobody appeared. The cries of surprise and joy I was looking forward to hearing from my grandmother never sounded, and there was little I could do but start the long trip home.

Only, getting back proved far more difficult than getting there. Somehow I lost the way back to the station, kilburn having two or three such places. I became lost, and cursed myself for ever having the idea. Eventually, though, I found my way, but not before getting caught by a couple of vicious showers. Oh well, another misadventure to chalk up to experience, but at least I have seen a little more of this vast, sprawling maelstrom I call home.

The entire country seems to be getting into a tizzy over the wave of Bulgarian and romanan immigrants we can expect in the coming months. Farage et al are, of course, whipping up xenophobic fears, forgetting the fact that much of our economy is based on so-called foreigners coming here,, working hard and building up businesses. Farage claims that immigration puts some kind of pressure upon society, causing tension. Putting aside his other dubious claims, I find this claim the most objectionable. He is effectively claiming that migrants themselves cause xenophobia, that xenophobes themselves aren’t to blame for their hatred, and that people have a right to resent migrants. I might not have explained that very well, but the social tensions ffarage alludes to is surely the animosity some people feel towards migrants, for which farage blames the migrants themselves. In effect he is dressing xenophobia up as something legitimate; I find that disgusting and hope others see it. I hope too that others are as proud to live in such a vibrant, diverse society as I am.

Anyway, happy new year!