When I was fifteen or sixteen, one of the poems I remember studying for my GCSE English literature was Rising Damp by UA Fanthorpe. It’s quite a nice piece about the lost rivers of London: the ancient rivers of the area, now trapped underground, diverted through tunnels. One of the rivers I remember it mentioning (although, strangely, having just Googled it, I can’t find a copy which does) is the Ravensbourne. I hadn’t thought about it in ages. This morning, though, heading out on my daily trundle, I decided to go and explore the other side of Greenwich, around Deptford. I don’t often go that way, and felt like a change. It’s a nice, pleasant area close to the Thames. After a while, I came across a river flowing through a new-looking park, a well maintained path running beside it. A sign nearby named the river, and my memories of GCSE English twenty-five years ago came flooding back: it was the Ravensbourne, now restored, cleaned, and looking rather pretty in the Spring sun. I think Mrs. Fanthorpe would be pleased.

Surely the only thing I can blog about today is this absolutely incredible news that NASA has successfully flown a helicopter on mars. “The drone, called Ingenuity, was airborne for less than a minute, but Nasa is celebrating what represents the first powered, controlled flight by an aircraft on another world.” Of course, there’s not much I can say about it, other than how awesome I find it. As a guy who has trouble controlling his powerchair sometimes, I can’t even begin to imagine the technical ingenuity which must have gone into this feat. In terms of human achievement, surely this is another huge milestone.

Shortly after posting my entry earlier I trundled out on my daily stroll. It was a lovely day and I was eager to enjoy thee weather. Today I thought I would head down to Woolwich, just to check out what, if anything, was happening down there. As I was passing the old military academy though, I caught sight of something I didn’t expect to see this early in the year: on the same pitch where I watched my friends the Blackheath Mighty Eights last summer, there was a cricket match being played. It instantly struck me as a glorious sight, and I decided to go in and watch; I wasn’t expecting to see it’s like for at least a couple of months. I didn’t recognise either team, and I only stayed for a couple of overs or so before resuming my walk; but nonetheless it is surely a great sign that summer is just around the corner.

I didn’t watch Prince Phillip’s funeral yesterday, preferring to get out and about and enjoy a lovely spring day. There’s not much I can say about it. Having caught a glimpse of all the pomp and ceremony on this morning’s news though, I think I’ll just say this: Given Phill’s send-off was so lavish, I think Sir David Attenborough should get the same treatment. Hopefully Sir David will be with us for a few years yet, but as the greatest broadcaster ever, who over seventy years on tv has had an enormous effect on our collective knowledge of the natural world, surely he deserves nothing less than a state funeral. He is just as much a part of the country’s cultural make up as any prince; I still think he should have played a role in the London Olympic ceremonies. A state funeral – albeit a carbon neutral one – would be a good way for the UK to thank this great, great man for the effect he has had on our collective knowledge and appreciation of the natural world.

As a life long Star Trek fan, it is with a heavy heart that I say that I’m beginning to think it’s losing it’s way. Throughout my childhood and adolescence, Star Trek was something special to me: a vision of a future in which humanity, at peace with itself, had united and set off to explore space. Every week, characters I loved were shown having wonderful adventures on awesome star ships. The TV program captivated me, and the films even more. It was sometimes all I could think about: there was something about this franchise which fascinated me unlike any other.

Yet now, that fascination, that excitement, is waning. Don’t get me wrong: I still love series like The Next Generation and Deep Space Nine. Captain Picard is one of my favourite characters in all of fiction; and I still love the Dominion War story arc from DS9. It’s just that Star Trek doesn’t seem to be what it once was. Read this, for instance. Five new Star Trek series are now in the works: three live action, two animated. Since the 2009 film, Star Trek has become a tangled mess of interwoven storylines and alternate universes; it has lost the artistic coherence it once had as well as the intellectual weight which was the foundation of so much of it’s appeal. It is just being churned out, series after series, merely to attract viewers hungry to see a return of the program they remember, with very little respect for what Star Trek once was. It is now serialised nonsense which doesn’t understand the boundaries between television and film, much less the combination of intellectually-grounded science fiction, compelling storylines and relatable, captivating characters that made Star Trek great in the first place.

I regret to say that a program I once loved has now lost my interest, and as long as it’s producers continue to churn out this lightweight, commercial dross, I can’t see it coming back.

I just want to note that today marks a year since Lyn passed away. I still miss her greatly. She was the most incredible person I’ll ever meet, with whom I had built up so many amazing memories. I still think about Lyn every day, trying to imagine what she would have said about certain things. After all, she had a huge effect on my life; I have Lyn to thank for my life here in London. I wish I could still go over to that old bungalow in Charlton for a coffee and a chat.

At fifty minutes, it might be a bit longer than most pieces of Youtube fan analysis, but I think Steve Shives needs to be congratulated for this video looking at the portrayal of disability – both physical and mental – in Star Trek. As Shives points out, when you look into it, there have been numerous representations of disability over the franchise’s fifty year history, and broadly speaking it has got it right. He goes through several episodes, ranging across the various incarnations of Star Trek, where disability plays a role: perhaps the most obvious is Geordi and his visor, foregrounded in several episodes of TNG and shown to be both an advantage and disadvantage. As Shives astutely (for a nondisabled person) points out, Geordi’s blindness was part of his character; it helped make him who he was. It is to Star Trek’s enormous credit that it presented a visually impaired man in this way. On the other hand, Trek hasn’t always got it right, sometimes depicting disability as negative, life-limiting, and something to be avoided at all costs.

Broadly speaking, this is a great video, well worth a watch: I’d have been a fool not to flag it up here. It broadly picks up upon what I was getting at in this entry. I must say, though, that in a way Shives only scratches the surface: he’s an able-bodied, white man, so while he seems to have a reasonable knowledge of things like the Social Model, it occurs to me he has no personal connection with what he’s discussing. To him, this is more or less an academic exercise. To guys like me it was great to see Star Trek presenting us with a vision of the future where everyone worked together to advance humanity, with disabled people playing an active role in that future. The only problem was it didn’t go far enough: as Shives points out, portrayals of disability in Star Trek are usually peripheral or fleeting; none of it’s incarnations has a central, major character whose impairment effects them significantly. There are no characters with cerebral palsy, for example, or characters with alternative ways of communicating. As hard as it tried, it couldn’t shake itself loose of the mindset that disability is always something to be minimised or escaped; there were no characters whose disabilities had a substantial impact on the way they interacted with others or carried out their role. Either that or it was something to be mocked or laughed at, as was the case with Reg Berkley, whose odd character traits could be read as a form of autism.

While Shives points this out, the fact remains he has no firsthand experience of what he is discussing, and as such ultimately belongs in the same group of people as the ones who created the programs he is trying to analyse: Trying to make sure a socially marginalised group is represented fairly, but not always getting it right. Inevitably in videos like this, there is an element of people trying to speak for us, ultimately reinforcing the normative ideas Shives is attempting to discuss. With that said, it is great to see people like Shives showing a willingness to engage with issues I had assumed were confined to the disabled community. Programs like Star Trek are ultimately all about the human condition, and the potential we have as a species if we work together while embracing our differences.

I suppose the notion of authenticity becomes a little complicated when it comes to animation. On the disability arts scene, there has long been the idea that only actors with disabilities should play characters with disabilities, otherwise it becomes the equivalent of blacking up. The only way you can get an authentic portrayal of a character with a disability is to cast an actor with that disability in the role. The same logic applies to members of any other minority. Yet I just came across this news that “Hank Azaria has apologised for voicing the Indian character Apu on The Simpsons.” Azaria has voiced Apu since 1990, but came under increasing criticism for reinforcing ethnic stereotypes. While I agree that it is only logical that an Indian actor should play an Indian character, was that apology really necessary? Nobody saw the colour of Azaria’s skin; he was just putting on a voice, as he did for all his other Simpsons roles. Isn’t making him apologise going a tad over the top? After all, The Simpsons is a cornerstone of popular culture, Apu included, and surely nothing to feel guilty about. Further, if the character reinforced ethnic stereotypes, then surely it is the writers and directors who created the character who should apologise, rather than the actor voicing him. I’m not saying Apu shouldn’t have been recast, but given the transgression wasn’t that overt, did the guy who played him for so long really need to apologise? It’s not like he was painting his skin black, or pretending to need to use a wheelchair.

So far today, the hardest thing for me to do has been to go past so many freshly opened pubs and resist going in. I now try to keep my drinking to a minimum, and Monday drinking is strictly off limits; but the sight of pubs finally being open, with people sat outside at last having something resembling a social life, proved very enticing indeed. It isn’t the beer per se (I can, after all, have a drink at home if I really wanted) as much as the way in which pubs function as community hubs. People gather in them, often after long days at work, and let their proverbial hair down. They are places where you can find people from all walks of life, with all kinds of background; they are places where you can make new friends. People are sometimes surprised to find a person like me in a pub, so they come up to me and introduce their selves. Occasionally we have remained in contact over Facebook. Alternatively I sometimes just sit and observe people, gathering ideas for stories and blog entries.

Best of all, they are places to meet up with your mates, which is what I’ve missed the most. Two years or so ago, I remember meeting my old uni mates Chris and Steve at the Royal Standard in Blackheath, and chatting like the three of us were still up in Alsager. I suggested the Standard because it was an easily findable pub we could all get to. Pubs are landmarks as well as gathering points. They are places where you can meet up and have a bit of fun. After the last year, I’m really, really looking forward to being able to do that again: as soon as I can, I plan to invite Steve, Chris, Charlotte and whoever else I can to my new place in Eltham to show them around and have a drink. It now feels far too long since I last saw any of those guys.

That is the point of pubs. Going in to one today as I passed them, just because I could, would have been pointless. I would have had a beer or two, and the rest of the day would have been useless. It was best to wait for an occasion which could be relished, shared and possibly blogged about the next day.

Just so everyone knows, I have no intention to blog about the death of you-know-who. I never met the man and don’t have much of an opinion on him, so what could I possibly contribute to the discourse? Besides, Old Phil’s passing seems to be the only thing all the mainstream news outlets are talking about at the moment, and probably will be for a while. That is concerning given the current violence in Northern Ireland, as well as the fact that CaMoron has been caught trying to get favours from his old Tory chums. As others are already pointing out, Prince Phillip’s death has come at quite a convenient time for the Tories – not that anyones accusing them of anything, mind.

I officially hate street preachers. I encountered some the other day in Greenwich, and again today in woolwich. They really, really get on my nerves. That they think they have a right to stand in public spaces and try to indoctrinate people, forcing their religion into passers by, really pisses me off. It seems so arrogant. They refuse to listen to any argument, or anyone asking them to stop. What gives them the right to interrupt everyone else’s day by shouting baseless rubbish which not everyone agrees with through portable speakers in public spaces? Well, if they have the right to do that then I have a right to go up to them, tell them to stop spouting bullshit and attempt to turn their speaker off.

I wouldn’t be much of a disability-related blogger if I didn’t flag up this extremely worrying Guardian article. Disabled people across the country are facing huge increases in care costs. “Adults with a disability or mental illness are receiving extra care bills running into thousands of pounds that they say could force them to cut back on food and heating and threaten their social independence.

Amid a care funding crisis, some English councils are quietly increasing charges to people with learning disabilities and mental illness, in effect clawing back welfare payments and leaving some working-age adults with little more than £3 a day to spend.” In other words, “we” are shouldering the brunt of the Tories’ tax cuts for their rich friends, as well as the obvious drop in business due to Brexit. Presumably, the bastards in government opted to place the burden on disabled people because we are least able to fight back or complain, or so they assume. Tell me, how is that fair, and why do we have to put up with such sheer heartlessness from the utter disgraces to human civilisation currently governing the country?

I have always liked to watch people doing things. When I was small, I could spend hours watching my dad garden or my mum cook. Watching people build things held a special attraction for me, although I’m not sure why. Perhaps it was the spectacle of someone doing something I physically couldn’t. A couple of weeks ago, I noticed something being done on a small area of greenery not far from my house: they seemed to be gearing up to build something there, but it wasn’t clear what. The space isn’t very large, so they can’t be constructing anything major; but every time I go past there I look to see what they could be making. I can’t seem to stop myself. Today, though, I took the time to go and have a proper look. There were four or five men at work there. The odd thing was, they didn’t seem to be doing that much: they had concreted a line of several tall iron posts into the ground, and the men, all with Liverpudlian accents, were checking to see whether they were upright. What that will eventually become is anybody’s guess, but in the mean time at least I have something to go and watch.

I Wrote this a couple of years ago, but wanted to post it here to make sure I had a good, referencable copy I could link to and show people.

You may have heard about the Covid Memorial Wall up in London, across the Thames from Westminster. People are going and drawing hearts, usually in red, on a large concrete wall on the south bank of the Thames, and adding the name of someone they have lost during the pandemic. A couple of days ago, Serkan suggested we go up and add Lyn to it. I thought that was an incredible idea, (although what L herself would have said about it is another matter). Yesterday afternoon, then, we went up, catching the Jubilee Line to Westminster and then walking across the bridge. I now know the intricacies of the London Transport Network quite well; yet I can never forget that that is due to the fact I met Lyn. She introduced me to this great metropolis – she made me a Londoner.

On the way there, Serkan bought a marker. It was supposed to be red, but he could only find gold. As Serkan was drawing the heart, though, that struck me as very apt: Lyn’s heart was unique and stood out, just as Lyn was, and did. Looking at Lyn’s golden heart on the wall, I missed her. It is now almost a year since she passed away, but I still feel the absence of this wonderful, incredible person acutely. I suppose adding Lyn’s heart to that wall was a way to express that.

There are two very interesting things I’d like to flag up today, even if there isn’t that much I can say about either. Firstly, if you want to see what a low-budget, Soviet Russian adaptation of The Lord of the Rings looks like, go here. According to this Guardian article I came across yesterday, they were rediscovered after thirty years and uploaded to Youtube by Russian Tolkien fans. I haven’t watched the film so I can’t comment on it (not being able to speak russian) but needless to say, it looks very, very different to Peter Jackson’s adaptations. Mind you, it’s worth pointing out that it is probably thanks to the popularity of Jackson’s film(s) that the russian one was rediscovered.

The second thing which I want to direct you to today is this awesome looking trailer for the second season of Star Trek Picard. It’s only a short trailer, so again I can’t say much, but all the same it has my juices going. It looks splendid: we get a glimpse of Chatau Picard, and from the look of it, the great John De Lancie is reprising his role as Q. It’s definitely something to look forward to, although a cynic might point out that Q always was a fan favourite, so his reappearance is bound to increase viewing figures. Nonetheless Season 2 of Picard is definitely something I’m looking forward to.

I decided to go and explore Canary Wharf yesterday. It’s only one stop along the Jubilee Line, but I rarely venture there: I suppose I find it too corporate and imposing. What I found, though, stunned me: everything, from the expensive watches in the shop windows to the buildings their selves, seemed to glitter. It did not feel like anywhere else in London, but like a fragment of New York had been transported across the Atlantic and plonked down in the docklands. I must admit I was awe-struck by the architecture, and how the old docks now had modern skyscrapers sprouting between them. The whole place felt like a labyrinth of ultra-modern, obscenely expensive glitz, with paths winding through well-kept pleasure gardens and between skyscraper-lined docks. Even the Tube station doubled as a large shopping mall. You could tell there were ridiculous amounts of money around.

Yet I couldn’t help being reminded of what I was talking about here. I don’t think you’ll find anywhere like Canary Wharf anywhere else in the country. Indeed all over the city colossal sums are being pumped into urban development: I only need to trundle over to nearby Kidbrooke to see how an area, neglected until fairly recently, is being developed and gentrified beyond recognition. Is it the same case across the country? How come such huge amounts are being invested in london while everywhere else gets left behind? Why should London get all the swanky new buildings? It’s an imbalance which worries me, especially given that I suspect it’s reflected in levels of accessibility, with so much more public transport, infrastructure etc being wheelchair accessible than elsewhere. Almost everywhere I went yesterday, there was either a ramp or a lift.

That aside, I think I’ll go back to Canary Wharf soon: I was quite taken by it’s sheer, brazen opulence, and I feel there’s much more to explore. Mind you, I must admit that I was slightly disappointed that, despite the name, I didn’t find any tropical birds or Klingons.

I note that the Church is insisting that it should be able to open up for worship this easter, despite the ongoing pandemic. Does that not strike anyone else as arrogant? The clergy are essentially saying they don’t care whose lives they put at risk, their right to continue to indoctrinate people should take priority. As I have written on here before, I see religion as a form of social control: it simply uses a set of ancient myths as a source of authority in order to tell people how to behave. It’s usually highly conservative and oppressive. It also seems determined to cling to that authority however it can, including insisting on it’s right to carry out it’s rituals and preach to people when any other form of social gathering is prohibited. As soon as we start to peak behind the curtain and question why it should hold so much sway, the church’s authority evaporates and it becomes nothing more than a bunch of dogmatic old men ranting their heads off trying to tell us what to think and how to live our lives. Thus it will do all it can to remain open and retain it’s cultural position, of course insisting that faith gives people hope and comfort, when in fact it binds them to dogma. Only when we question religion can we free ourselves from the church’s cultural snare.

Here endeth the Sunday sermon.

I realise this isn’t much of a blog entry, but just to note that a couple of days ago I started to muse over whether, in creating the Mines of Moria, with its labyrinth of tunnels and caverns, JRR Tolkien could have been having a sly dig (pun intended) at the London Underground. The tube was in its infancy when Tolkien was writing The Hobbit; and he was famously opposed to such modern, highly industrial projects. Moria could have been his way of expressing his opposition to something he would have found outlandish. If that suspicion is right though, then I just hope that the guys behind Crossrail didn’t go too deep and disturb any balrogs.

Today was the first day in months when I actually did something – by which I mean something other than muck about on my computer or trundle around at random in my powerchair – and it feels very good indeed. A week or two ago, Sue Elsegood from the Greenwich Association of Disabled People (GAD) invited me to a meeting in Greenwich Park. The park management was redesigning an area of the park, and had asked for feedback on the plans from disabled people. Not knowing quite what to expect yet eager to make a contribution to my local community however I can, I set off to the arranged meeting point this afternoon feeling quite optimistic.

I felt the event went well: I met up with Sue and another lady, Anne, on time, and we were met by a very nice lady from Royal Parks. She walked us through the plans, which were for a wide-ranging redesign of an area if the park I had never been into. Called The Wilderness, they included designs for a new wildlife centre and Learning Centre. I tried to contribute where I could, pointing out access issues I noticed, but in all I found it quite a happy, social event. Apart from the fact that they would need to cut down a few elderly trees, I think the plans met with our approval. Most of all, I think it just felt good to be actually doing something after so many months of idleness.

After the meeting, I went for a socially distanced coffee with Sue, her PA and her mum outside the park cafe. I think that was my first proper, face-to-face conversation with someone other than Serkan in months; to be socialising once more felt incredible. You may not have heard of Sue Elsegood, but she is nothing less than a legend. She was among the group of disabled people who fought for and won accessible public transport in London, at one point by famously blocking Westminster Bridge. As she talked to me about it over our coffee, I suddenly realised that only reason I could get onto a bus to get to the park in the first place was due to what the woman in front of me and her friends had done. I owed her so much, and told her so.

Sue being Sue of course, she said that I didn’t owe her anything. Nonetheless I was then struck by the thought of making a film documenting those events. I suggested it to Sue, who liked the idea. At that, though, it was time to wend my way home, relishing the spring air, the blossom of the trees, and the promise of things to come.

If you ever wonder just how far up their own arse anyone can go, just read this. “Donald Trump has launched a new website celebrating his time as US president that includes a very selective retelling of the history of his time in office…The centrepiece of the site is an 885-word history of the Trump presidency, listing the achievements of what it describes as “the most extraordinary political movement in history”.” I can’t decide whether it’s more comic or tragic to see a man so deluded, whose image of himself is so divorced from reality, that he is willing to go to such lengths to preserve his narratives. Trump obviously thinks that if he shouts loudly enough, the bullshit he spews will be accepted as the truth. It’s a sign of a profoundly disturbed mind. What is even more worrying, though, is that some people still believe what Trump says, against all the evidence that he is nothing but a lying, egotistical conman. Less businessman, more bullshit-merchant.

I just came across some photos on my aunt’s Facebook page of an interesting looking exhibition on the Champs Elysees in Paris. The pictures were of sculptures, purportedly of cats, but looking to me more like strange, anthropomorphised hippos. It made me miss the french capital more than ever, of course, but what caught my eye was the fact that the statues were titled not just in french but in English too: that is, beneath each statue was a plaque bearing it’s title both in French and English. Does that not strike you as odd? I’ve been to quite a few exhibitions here in london, and everything has always been in English. If they started naming things in french, there would probably be some sort of nationalist outcry. I’m not saying this is necessarily a bad thing – it’s good to see our French neighbours being so inclusive – but why is English becoming so predominant? It seems it’s even taking over the French capital, which must frankly be galling to any french person even remotely proud of their history and culture. Just imagine if the shoe was on the other foot. And why are they using English rather than any other European language, given we aren’t even members of the EU any more?

I will always be baffled by how can’t some people realise that, if they are able enough to earn a decent amount of money, it’s only fair that part of their earnings should go towards helping people less able than they are. And why can’t they acknowledge that surely the most efficient way to render such aid is through the state? Or do they realise both, but are simply to selfish to admit it? Hoarding money while knowingly letting others starve is not economic prudence but simply greed: a mark of spoiled children who were never taught the value of sharing. We seem to have such a spoiled brat currently running the country; a man too blinded by his ego, his vision of himself as worldly yet likeable statesman, to realise most people see him as the fraudulent, lying charlatan he is. A man so despicable, so spoiled, he thinks he has a right to use public money to fund his affairs. What baffles me is how we could allow such blatantly, manifestly unfit people call theirselves our leaders, even after all the hardship and suffering they have put the country through.

It seems Boston now has to be added to my list of cities I want to visit. According to this TrekMovie article, “Today, March 26, 2021, would have been the late Leonard Nimoy’s 90th birthday. And to honor [sic] the legendary Star Trek actor the City of Boston declared today Leonard Nimoy Day. And the Boston Museum of Science just announced they are partnering with the Nimoy family to develop a memorial honoring [sic] him and his famed Vulcan Salute.” I must say that strikes me as a very cool tribute, especially given Nimoy, and Star Trek as a whole, has done so much over six decades to encourage a fascination in science and exploration in so many people. After all, it was Star Trek which first made my brother Mark interested in physics, and now he has a PhD in it, although I’m still waiting for him to invent a warp drive for my powerchair.

Today probably wasn’t the best day to go exploring, but a couple of days ago I began thinking about the Crystal Palace again. Basically, I’d come across something on Facebook about next years Festival of Brexit, which got me thinking about the Great Exhibition: I wondered whether the Tories could be daft enough to try to invoke one with the other by doing something in Crystal Palace park. Wanting a trip out anyway, I decided to go take a look – it’s only a single half-hour bus ride from the end of my road. What I found, though, didn’t fill me with enthusiasm: I had more or less the same reaction that I had the last time I visited the place in 2018. While there were one or two new buildings such as a cafe (open for take-away only, so I couldn’t have a coffee) the place was still crumbling; the paths were a nightmare to roll along. I trundled past the Crystal Palace Bowl, an open-air music stage where famously Bob Marley played his last ever UK concert, now derelict and so badly in need of repair that local people refer to it as The Rusty Laptop. The park had the aura of a place of long faded glory, especially in the rain. Whatever plans there were to regenerate it seem to have come to nothing, or at least very little. It seems that not every part of London gets the same treatment when it comes to regeneration.

Everyone seems to be getting so excited that the coronavirus rollout is going so well and the infection rate is now so low, things may at last soon return to something vaguely resembling normality. Yet I must now point out, cases are increasing in Europe at a worrying rate. That means that we are not out of the woods yet: it wouldn’t take much for a new variant to pop  over the channel and we’d be back to square one. The pandemic won’t be over until it’s over everywhere. Yet surely that demonstrates the importance of working together with our neighbours rather than cutting ourselves off. Had we still been members of the EU, perhaps we could have better coordinated a continent-wide response, rather than bickering like children over vaccine supplies. It is only due to Brexit that the Astrazenica mess ever happened, not that the Tories would ever admit it: they benefit politically from the division such scandals cause, and actively try to stir up animosity towards Europe.

That is, when they aren’t trying to credit greed and capitalism for the success of the vaccination process, when it was in fact the altruism, kindness and sense of community which underpin organisations like the NHS which we have to thank. As a Tory, Johnson ideologically opposes the NHS, preferring profit-based systems where the richer you are, the better healthcare you have access to; he’ll never admit a socially-based system has saved the country. Contrary to the moronic claims of the scumbag now in Downing Street, capitalism gets in the way and hinders the process, when in fact we all need to work together. This year has demonstrated that beyond doubt. The Tories might try to take the credit, but it is despite, not because of, their perverse world views that we are at this point; and had it been soley up to them, things could have been far worse.

The Tories are thus ideologically opposed to both the NHS and EU, but it is only thanks to the bloody hard work of National Health Service staff that we are doing so well; and if we were still members of the European Union there would be much less risk of a resurgence. Why then, in the name of all that is good in the world, do we let these fools run the country?

I just came across something very, very interesting indeed. Huge Star Trek fan that I am, when I was growing up I used to watch The Next Generation again and again. It was on BBC 2 every Wednesday for years, repeated ad nauseam. I had always assumed I’d seen every episode of every season. However, I was messing around on Youtube earlier when I happened upon this video about the ten Star Trek episodes which pissed people off the most. In the number nine slot was an episode of TNG called The High Ground, which according to the video had the crew of the Enterprise visit a planet upon which a group of terrorists was conducting a campaign for independence. The episode was rather controversial in that it explored the terrorists’ motives, showing their side of the story. It was so controversial, in fact, that the episode had never been aired on either the BBC or RTE, particularly given that it was first released in the early nineties at the time of the troubles in Ireland. (The episode even refers to the troubles directly).

My curiosity, predictably, was too strong: Googling the episode’s season and episode number (Season 3 Episode 12) I headed straight for Netflix. What I found myself watching was a complex, nuanced and ambiguous piece of television. While it did not take the terrorist’s side, nor did it totally condemn them; both sides were shown to be at fault and capable of brutality. Perhaps most controversially of all, it went so far as to say terrorism could sometimes achieve it’s goals, for example even referring to it leading to Irish Unification in 2024. I could certainly see why the episode could be considered so politically sensitive and why the Beeb may have been so reluctant to screen it, especially when it was produced. At the same time, I thought it was a great, thought-provoking episode which reminded me why TNG was so ground-breaking; I’m really glad to have finally seen it.

Today, we are told by the media, marks the miserable anniversary of the beginning of a miserable year. I know I should probably say something to commemorate it, but what could any writer write about anything so hideous? Instead, I think I’ll just direct everyone here once again, and ask you all to turn your volume up and join in.

Ipad passcodes are all well and good when it comes to making your device more secure, but when you use your Ipad as a communication aid and are required to type in a six digit code each time you want to say anything, they can really be a pain. I suppose it’s one of the drawbacks of communicating via an ipad, and particularly annoying if the function activates itself automatically after an update; although fortunately, as I found out earlier, it can easily be deactivated.

I first read this article on Thursday, but decided it would be a bit too curmudgeonly to flag up on my birthday, yet I think it’s the best piece of political and semiotic analysis I’ve read in a while. It’s a fairly long Guardian article examining Johnson’s clownish persona and the way he seeks to present himself as jovial, likeable and friendly while belying a much meaner, nastier reality. I don’t agree with it completely as I think Johnson thinks of himself as more of a statesman than a clown, but nonetheless I think it”s very well written and well worth reading.

Given I got so excited about Bond’s appearance on Comic Relief yesterday, I’m probably expected to say something about it today. To be honest, though, I don’t think there is that much I can sink my analytical teeth into: they obviously played it for laughs ass befitted the occasion, but these were more chuckles than full on belly laughs. There were one or two references to things like Bond’s sexuality and carbon footprint, as well as to the pandemic, but apart from that the skit did not strike me as particularly noteworthy. There was no moment of awesomeness I was kind of hoping for. That said, it was good to see Daniel Craig back in the role, and I liked the way Cathrine Tate’s Nan cheekily made fun of Bond while Craig tried his best to keep a straight face, but failed ever so slightly at the end. Both actors were obviously having fun, and I think this sketch should just be seen as a bit of lighthearted frippery more than something to delve deeply into.

I just heard something which is simply too hilarious not to flag up here. According to this TrekCulture video, when Star Trek Deep Space Nine was being produced, whenever the USS Defiant cloaked, shooting had to be stopped while the production crew changed every light bulb on the set. The reason I find that so funny is, as the chap in the video says, it will ring a bell with Red Dwarf fans everywhere.

Not that I wholly approve of charity fundraising events as a means of supporting society, but this news about tonight’s Comic Relief has predictably raised my interest. Daniel Craig’s 007 is apparently going to appear in a sketch with Cathrine Tate’s character Nan. “The Bond-themed skit will see Nan – now a cleaner at MI6 – take an unexpected call from 007 while cleaning M’s office.” While I doubt we can expect anything as incredible as Happy And Glorious (although I wouldn’t be surprised if there was a reference to it) this has the potential to be one of those interesting crossovers which fascinate me. From the stills, it looks like they will just be interacting via webcam, but even so I’ll now be looking forward to seeing what they do with this all day.

This awesome cake just arrived from my brother Luke and sister in law Yan, ahead of my birthday tomorrow. It needs to thaw before I eat it, but it looks so delicious I just had to blog about it. Thanks bro!

For the first time in my life, I honestly think I have a belly. I was looking in the mirror yesterday, and my stomach looked bigger than it has ever done. I’ve always been rather thin, probably because I constantly move, yet recently I’ve started to notice a distinct paunch. I can certainly no longer fit into all the dancewear I used to muck around in. Why this may be I have no idea: I’m not really eating more than I used to, and I’m exercising about as much as I ever did. Perhaps I’m just getting old.

Yesterday I had a brief look at how to get to Clapham Common from here in Eltham. It’s an area of London I’ve never been to, and I was curious about checking out the events currently unfolding there myself. I therefore did what I usually do in such situations, and headed to the TFL website. However, there I came across a problem: Clapham Common tube station, on the Northern Line, is not wheelchair accessible, and I couldn’t see any other route to get there. At that I ditched the idea. Yet in a way it strikes me as ironic: women are currently their protesting their right to cross the Common – a well-known cruising zone – without fear of sexual attack, but at least they can get there in the first place. Of course, I’m not disputing a woman’s right to go anywhere they wish without fear of sexual assault; they just seem to forget just how lucky they are to have the option, or perhaps they wouldn’t feel so hard done by. They claim they are not free, yet these mostly straight, white, middle class, able-bodied protesters don’t seem to realise how free they really are. Or to put that another way, they have every right to protest; I’d probably be there with them, if only I could get there.

It has been a long, hard year for everybody. Although we speak daily over the web, I haven’t met my parents physically in months, and to be frank I feel their absence. I have always been close to my parents: we are a close, tactile family in which hugs were always at the ready when needed. Today of all days, I am missing my mum. I miss her cuddles and kisses, her infectious laughter, jokes and wit, and especially her delicious cooking. I know it won’t be too long now until we can meet again, but today I just want to note how much I miss my mum, as well as just how much she means to me. I know I’m not always the best of sons, particularly when it comes to sending cards, but I know how lucky I am to have her. Happy Mother’s Day mum; I’ll see you soon.

Late yesterday afternoon I came across something on Facebook which I found very disturbing indeed. My friend Luke F. had posted an account of his experiences at his special school. It’s quite a well known school, so I won’t name it for fear of breaching confidentiality, but what Luke described was chilling. From what I read, the school forced Luke, who has fairly severe CP, to take pills (I’m not sure what pills) against his wishes, bribed him, and made him wear arm restraints.

Now, I know I wrote on here not long ago about how I can see the need for special schools in certain, specific instances: I am not an ‘all means all’ guy because I believe that trying to educate the most severely disabled children – those with, say, severe autism or learning difficulties – among their able bodied peers would put so much pressure on the child it would probably be cruel. I also don’t think this is an issue one should be dogmatic about. Yet cases like Luke’s give me pause for thought. While I never encountered such cruelty at my special school, I’ve heard many accounts of children being similarly mistreated; teenagers being put to bed at seven; kids barely being fed; students getting the most cursory, half arsed educations imaginable. Indeed, Lyn went through such an ordeal. I had hoped such travesties were well in the past, but Luke told me he only left school in 2003.

This cannot be right; it cannot be legal. Of course disabled children should be educated alongside their able-bodied classmates where at all possible, for the benefit of both. Yet while I feel there are select, specific instances where segregated, special education is necessary, surely horrific accounts like Luke’s cannot keep cropping up.